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Since Zane started back to school Monday, I have no excuses left not to go to the gym.  I gave myself one last free day and headed out Tuesday morning.  I did 30 minutes of cardio and some light weights.  Same thing yesterday.  Took today off to do some shopping and housework.  After I had Miles, I was able to get down to pre-Miles size and then I got complacent.  I have to say that I’m more motivated to lose the weight this time since I recently auditioned for Elevation’s worship team and made it.  Now I’m not one of those self-hating people, I’m just realistic.  I’m one of the older people up there and definitely the fattest.  Can’t do anything about my age, but I can do something about my weight.  Plus I need more energy since I’m adding something else into my already busy schedule and being at the gym is some great “me” time I get everyday.  The hardest thing I deal with is finding healthy, cheap, AND easy recipes.  I can find healthy and easy or cheap and easy, but not all three.  Any suggestions?


It’s been a little while since I’ve updated everyone on Zane’s summer, other than the bug incidents, so here it goes.  Zane has become particularly anxious this summer.  I really don’t know why.  It may just be a side effect from the medication he started about 3 months ago.  The littlest things set him off and he’ll go into a full on meltdown.  Throwing himself on the ground and refusing to walk, is just one of the lovely behaviors.  Gotta love summer vacation!

Let’s see, it was about a month ago when I lost Zane at the mall.  I was just there to exchange a couple of his birthday gifts.  I litterally glanced down to read a price tag, and when I looked back up, Zane was gone.  I was in the middle of a department store and Zane is shorter than all the clothing racks, so I had no idea which way he had gone.  I frantically called his name knowing that he wouldn’t verbally respond but hoping he would come back to me.  He’s been running off a lot more these past few months.  Anyway, I could feel the panic setting in and the tears welling up.  I had the baby in the stroller and Kalliope too, so I could only look but so fast and I knew the more time I spent looking in the wrong places, the further he was getting away from me.  I was in a little run down mall in a small town and frankly, they didn’t have a missing child protocol other than to call security.  Most malls now go into complete lock down the second a child goes missing.  As I ran around, I kept thinking of all the automatic doors that Zane could just walk right out of and into traffic.  After about 20 agonizing minutes, I finally I found him at the other end of the mall circling the gumball machines.  My relief of finding him was short lived.  The minute I grabbed his hand he threw the mother of all tantrums!  Everyone stared and I ended up just leaving the mall in complete tears.

Yesterday we had a playdate at a local park here after Zane’s open house.  Jason was working, so it was just me and the kids.  I had gone in prepared for the worst (or so I thought) and was prepared to have to leave at any moment.  Since it was late in the day, there were only a handful of other kids.  A father and his son, I would guess around 9 years old, were reading and having sandwiches in the pavillion.  Zane was good running around and playing until he happened upon this man and son.  I was with the baby, but watching Zane like a hawk.  I saw Zane run up and grab a bite of the boy’s peanut butter and jelly sandwich, and then I was on the run.  It’s a big park and it was like I was running in slow motion.  The man had taken the sandwich from him and Zane proceeded to absolutely freak.  Screaming, stomping, punching himself, etc.  The man literally grabbed his stuff and ran about 20 feet from Zane and just stood there and stared at him looking completely horrified.  I finally got there (yes, I will be returning to the gym once school starts!) and apologized profusely.  I decided it was time to go and after another big tantrum and some bribery, we left.  I was okay with the events that transpired until I talked with my husband.  I just broke down.  I could tell he was ticked about the man, but I wasn’t.  Heartbroken.  That’s the exact word.  All I could see is the man staring at Zane with such fear it his eyes.  I couldn’t blame him, he didn’t know why Zane was acting that way.  Sometimes I’m glad that Zane doesn’t notice other people’s reactions to him, and this was one of those times.

I really don’t have a point to these stories.  I guess sharing just helps me to process everything and remember to be patient with other people.  Having Zane is a constant adjustment for me, and I live with him day in and day out.  Oh well, tomorrow is a new day.  And school starts on Monday!  Yeah!

BTW, I got one of these for Zane.  So far I’ve only gotten stares, haven’t heard any comments…yet.

Friday night, my girl Jennifer, hosted an 80’s party.  It was so much fun!  If I was going to look the part, I had to own it.  Although I’m more a child of the 90’s and had to google “80’s style”, I don’t think I did too bad.  What do you think?

This is great.  Obviously he put a lot of practice in it.  The funny thing is the mom (grandma?) sitting on the couch and knitting through the whole thing without once looking up. 

My cute little Miles walks like a zombie, if it weren’t for his adorable smile!!!

As you can see, the mom freaked and ran right in front of us!

Yes, two posts in one day.  I’ve got a lot of catching up to do.

On Monday one of my favorite shows, Extreme Makeover: Home Edition, was here in Charlotte and my girl, Kellie, scored VIP passes to the reveal.  It was a hot, but a once in a lifetime experience!  This amazing family, the King family, runs a 24 hour free daycare for low income families.  As a mom, I can really appreciate what this family is doing for so many families in need.  It amazes me that there are angels walking among us every day and we don’t realize it.  Maybe it’s the person you hurry to get in front of at the check out line, or the person you wouldn’t let merge into your lane.  After the Joni & Friends retreat and EM:HE, the Lord has really been pressing selflessness on my heart.  How awesome would the world be if everyone (including me) was more like the Kings or the Samaritan?

“A Samaritan traveling the road came on him. When he saw the man’s condition, his heart went out to him. He gave him first aid, disinfecting and bandaging his wounds. Then he lifted him onto his donkey, led him to an inn, and made him comfortable. In the morning he took out two silver coins and gave them to the innkeeper, saying, ‘Take good care of him. If it costs any more, put it on my bill—I’ll pay you on my way back.  Luke 10:33-35 The Message

I heard that this episode will air in October or November so keep an eye out.  Kellie and I were right up in front of the house at the barricade, so you should see us!  Here are a few pics of this day. 

I bet you didn’t know my kids were such great dancers.

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Yes, I’m still here.  We’ve just been so busy!  Anyway, this past week my family was blessed to be able to attend the Joni and Friends family retreat.  It’s a great organization that, amongst many other things, provides a retreat for families with special needs.  We met a lot of great and inspiring people and got a much needed break.  Zane got a one on one buddy all week, the baby went to their nursery, and Kalliope got to do all kinds of fun things with other kids her age.  She went horse back riding, rode the zip line, and climbed the rock wall.  Jason and I did the zip line too; it was a blast!  We tried to get Zane to do all those things, but he freaked right when it was his turn to go.

All in all it was a great experience and highly recommend it to any family with special needs.  But it’s always great to be home too!